Be Strong and Push Back...

     Don’t you just wish you could go back in time a reverse things? I do, on a rare occasion. An occasion that never needed an opinion, a lifetime experience to compete with what you just said or just to be plain argumentative. Casual talk turns into a debate. How do people live their lives like that? It’s foolish, especially if it’s for petty things. I don’t ask for people’s opinions; I am completely aware that people are entitled to the their opinions. I wish I was strong without someone there that I know will have my back. I WANT to be a strong individual. I think I am for the most part, however, you will have that obstacle in your face and you will just have to sometimes...bite the bullet.

Take the bull by the horns!

     I loathe people who think they know more than you and act like they have lived a thousand years beyond your age. Everyone has had those people whom are exasperating, irksome, vexing and the oh so NOT lovely people in their lives. It’s quite an adventure. In a way it’s a good thing…makes your skin tough and unbreakable. Never let anyone convince you otherwise, stick to your guns and push back. I’m slowly learning to push back. I’m tired of being run down by everyone. Get ready world…don’t make this Puerto Rican get outrageous. 

J.Cay

To Be Quite Frank...

     Let me just say this to start off, I have lots of gay friends who are near and dear to my heart. I may not agree with their life style, but I don't judge them because of the way they choose to live their life; they are a human being, just like anyone else. I'm tired of hearing about this whole Chick-Fi-Le crap that's going on. I wonder if the CEO is tired of hearing it as well? Yes, the mayor of Boston may fight them away from place their wonderful business in the city, but who are you to judge someone for how they believe life should be? Who are you to make your decisions based off of one person's opinion? Do we not have the rights to declare our opinions to others? Who judges people in the end, not man, but God does. Who are you?! I understand that some people live their lives like they are night and day...DIFFERENTLY. 

     I don't believe in gay marriage. Many young people and some older folks believe that it should be legal in all states. As for my beliefs and my opinions, I will always vote no to gay marriage. Call me old fashioned.  It's not in my up bringing and it's not how I choose to see life as homosexual. That lifestyle is an abomination to the Lord. However, people of different generations may agree or disagree with me. That's fine, you are entitled to your opinions fully. Bashing people for how they live or choose to live is not for me to decide. Bashing people as to why they are against it is not for you to judge. Only God can judge and I intend to keep it that way. I am entitled to my opinion. My friends who are gay are not foible people, they are strong personalities that will take on the world and achieve their dreams just like anyone. Only slight difference is, one prefers something the other does not. 

     I'm not writing this blog to piss anyone of, but I'm sure I will get some flack for it. I grew up in a Christian home. I grew up going to church knowing that I would be getting married to a man, not a woman. Once I moved out of the house and was completely on my own, I made my own decisions. I am not your average "think only inside the box" type of woman. I listen to people, they give me what they think is right and vice versa. I LISTEN to what people have to say. I don't throw Jesus and shove Jesus down their throat. I would hope that those people would bestow the same towards me. Not many people of my age are Republican/Conservative like, they like the government taking care of them and being inside their lives completely. I like less government involved and more power for people to handle their own insurance, their own property and their own LIVES. I don't judge people who are gay, I don't judge them in anyway shape or form, and I, like I said before; I hope they bestow the same towards me. That's my take on this. I'm not a subject matter expert, but from what I do know, I will express how I feel about it. Bam.

J. Cay. 

Not a fan...

Hmmm?

I'm not a fan of someone telling me I need a man in my life. Why, why, why? So I can be hurt all over again? No thank you. I'm fine and dandy all by myself. The last time I tried to be in a so-called relationship, it fell to the pits of hell. I am fine knowing that no one can hurt me again and again. I'm safe that way. Love is just a history that they may prove. It's pointless. I see way to many of my friends getting married and then divorcing  many months or years later. It's disgusting. If I ever married, the game is always going to end in a divorce. No matter what anyone tells me, it will end ugly. What better way to avoid it than to never be apart of it. Right? That's my view and I shall call it a night. 

J.Cay

From the Trenches...

     Well, I'll be darned! It's been a while since I've blogged about nonsense. HA. Soooo, here's what's happening! My life has a new chapter to add to it...Afghanistan. Yes, ladies and gents, this lovely country has me here courtesy of the US Army... It's not the average person's vacation spot. I'm deployed and life seems to be living from the trenches here. I am not use to the annoying people who stare at you twenty-four seven. Have they never seen anyone in a uniform before??I feel ugly everyday that I wake up and look in the mirror. I'm starting to hate this life. The pay is what is keeping me sane. I don't mind having people carry on a conversation with me, but don't be a creeper. Today was a hard day for me...mentally speaking. I don't even know how to describe the feeling. Maybe something happened that I am not aware of and it's affecting me anyway.

     Life could be worse. I have a roof over my head and free food. I've got people who annoy that crap out of me, except for one person...I work with 3 people. Yup, it's gonna be a great year. I can't complain too much...except for the people who have issues with that dang stare. Lady Gaga is in an awkward way, soothing to listen to after a long day of being vexed. Life in a nutshell from the sandbox.

J.Cay

Life is all of the above...

At times, life will throw you a monkey wrench. I wasn't prepared for mine. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision and if so, why do things unravel the wrong way? I need a restart. After these past few events this past month, I don't trust anyone. Friend or foe, don't expect me to trust you, EVER. You fool me once, shame on you, you fool me twice, shame on me. I'm going to be the best I can be and you cannot do anything. Suffer and be miserable in your guilt, which you don't even want to summon to your mind. If anyone wonders why I am quiet, and I don't open up to anybody anymore, well, you can thank a few people for it. For once in my life, I felt accepted and respected, but that slowly dwindled from reality. Maybe I rushed into a type of society that I wasn't mentally ready for? I've met a bunch of great people, but some could be deleted from my memory. 

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you can eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe

J.Cay

If you're going to San Francisco, make sure to wear a flower in your hair...

     The perks of being in the Army...you get to travel, A LOT. I went to California this week and boy did I have a freakin' blast!!! From Oakland to San Francisco, I was stoked to be there. I took pictures of a few things...I'll post them later. I saw Overstock.com Coliseum Stadium, aka where the Oakland A's and Oakland Raiders play...I have one word to describe that stadium, GHETTO. 

     The main thing I wanted to see was the Golden Gate Bridge. I have never felt so fantastically excited in my entire life. There are no words to describe San Fran; it's just an awesome place to be. I'd never live there, they drive like loons there! Muscle beach, well, that's self explanatory.

J.Cay

Madonna and Homework...

Seems as though, I can actually get school done when Madonna comes on my iTunes. I am trying really hard to self- motivate. CLEARLY, I am blogging instead of writing my paper. Who wants to write about managing human resources?? Bleck...this gal surely does not want to. HA! I may just go to Wendy's to grab some comida aka food in Spanish! I should have seriously graduated like 3 years ago. What you plan in life, most likely will change as you age. What a thought. Peace out my groupies. OKAY! Why did I just say groupies?? Hahaha. Time to get off this blogging business. Oh and just in case you were wondering what Madonna song I was jamming to, VOGUE, darlings, VOGUE.

J.Cay