Not a fan...

Hmmm?

I'm not a fan of someone telling me I need a man in my life. Why, why, why? So I can be hurt all over again? No thank you. I'm fine and dandy all by myself. The last time I tried to be in a so-called relationship, it fell to the pits of hell. I am fine knowing that no one can hurt me again and again. I'm safe that way. Love is just a history that they may prove. It's pointless. I see way to many of my friends getting married and then divorcing  many months or years later. It's disgusting. If I ever married, the game is always going to end in a divorce. No matter what anyone tells me, it will end ugly. What better way to avoid it than to never be apart of it. Right? That's my view and I shall call it a night. 

J.Cay

From the Trenches...

     Well, I'll be darned! It's been a while since I've blogged about nonsense. HA. Soooo, here's what's happening! My life has a new chapter to add to it...Afghanistan. Yes, ladies and gents, this lovely country has me here courtesy of the US Army... It's not the average person's vacation spot. I'm deployed and life seems to be living from the trenches here. I am not use to the annoying people who stare at you twenty-four seven. Have they never seen anyone in a uniform before??I feel ugly everyday that I wake up and look in the mirror. I'm starting to hate this life. The pay is what is keeping me sane. I don't mind having people carry on a conversation with me, but don't be a creeper. Today was a hard day for me...mentally speaking. I don't even know how to describe the feeling. Maybe something happened that I am not aware of and it's affecting me anyway.

     Life could be worse. I have a roof over my head and free food. I've got people who annoy that crap out of me, except for one person...I work with 3 people. Yup, it's gonna be a great year. I can't complain too much...except for the people who have issues with that dang stare. Lady Gaga is in an awkward way, soothing to listen to after a long day of being vexed. Life in a nutshell from the sandbox.

J.Cay

Life is all of the above...

At times, life will throw you a monkey wrench. I wasn't prepared for mine. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision and if so, why do things unravel the wrong way? I need a restart. After these past few events this past month, I don't trust anyone. Friend or foe, don't expect me to trust you, EVER. You fool me once, shame on you, you fool me twice, shame on me. I'm going to be the best I can be and you cannot do anything. Suffer and be miserable in your guilt, which you don't even want to summon to your mind. If anyone wonders why I am quiet, and I don't open up to anybody anymore, well, you can thank a few people for it. For once in my life, I felt accepted and respected, but that slowly dwindled from reality. Maybe I rushed into a type of society that I wasn't mentally ready for? I've met a bunch of great people, but some could be deleted from my memory. 

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you can eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe

J.Cay

If you're going to San Francisco, make sure to wear a flower in your hair...

     The perks of being in the Army...you get to travel, A LOT. I went to California this week and boy did I have a freakin' blast!!! From Oakland to San Francisco, I was stoked to be there. I took pictures of a few things...I'll post them later. I saw Overstock.com Coliseum Stadium, aka where the Oakland A's and Oakland Raiders play...I have one word to describe that stadium, GHETTO. 

     The main thing I wanted to see was the Golden Gate Bridge. I have never felt so fantastically excited in my entire life. There are no words to describe San Fran; it's just an awesome place to be. I'd never live there, they drive like loons there! Muscle beach, well, that's self explanatory.

J.Cay

Madonna and Homework...

Seems as though, I can actually get school done when Madonna comes on my iTunes. I am trying really hard to self- motivate. CLEARLY, I am blogging instead of writing my paper. Who wants to write about managing human resources?? Bleck...this gal surely does not want to. HA! I may just go to Wendy's to grab some comida aka food in Spanish! I should have seriously graduated like 3 years ago. What you plan in life, most likely will change as you age. What a thought. Peace out my groupies. OKAY! Why did I just say groupies?? Hahaha. Time to get off this blogging business. Oh and just in case you were wondering what Madonna song I was jamming to, VOGUE, darlings, VOGUE.

J.Cay

Food and Wine...

Only thing keeping my sanity alive... food and alcohol.

My life has been wonderful up until these past few days. I don't know what's going on with life lately, but it's really starting to become a pain in my rear. I'm to the point of just wanting to move away from Flagstaff and move to the valley. Is that possible?? NOPE. This gal is poor. Doesn't help that my boss keeps giving me days off that I don't need. Hmmm...2nd or 3rd week this has occurred. I see a pattern here! Is it me, or do I just suck at my job? Neither. Can I catch a break? ( In my New York-er accent) I am in need of some direction here! I am thinking about selling my condo and moving back to reality. Since leaving NAU, I have found that Flagstaff is just another town with a bunch of fabricated drama that I could care less about. 

I have moved on to bigger and better things. I figured working would make me meet new people, which it did, but some of them I would love to erase from memory. To move, or not to move? That is my question. Chandler, Gilbert, Scottsdale or Peoria? Chandler is my top choice. I am done with working at a movie theatre. It's not worth it anymore. How the hell did I put up with it for 6 years??   ...because my boss didn't favor anyone. Imagine that! Fair and balanced general manager. :) I'm looking into changing my career choice. Hotels seem to be up on the know how. Just finding a job here in Arizona is a bit challenging. I want to work somewhere I'm not told to wear a certain uniform, have adults as co-workers, have normal hours like a Monday through Friday 9am-5pm job and my weekends free, no annoying children to deal with and last but not least, HONEST NON-DECEITFUL fellow co-workers to be around. Is that too much to ask? 

Maybe I'm just done with being in a college town...yup, that's it. I've had a hell of a time trying to make friends, and I just get shot down. I'm not going to bite your head off you wacko! Life in a nutshell for this girl...

J. Cay

That awkward stage between jailbait and cougar...

Does anyone remember "Saved by the Bell" ???

Goodness gracious great balls of fire! I'M GETTING OLD. I have come to realize my life will now consist of sitting at home eating, watching tv till I can't take it anymore, reading and possibly taking up the hobby of knitting. What am I to do?! It's funny how I use phrases from "Saved by the Bell", "Doug", "USA High", "California Dreams" or "I Love Lucy" and NOBODY knows what I am talking about. Is it me or is it hot in here? I think menopause might be just around the corner.  Isn't that lovely? I have taken up a retired person's hobby of hiking and blogging. Even though many young people do hike and blog, it's not something I would have imagined myself doing at this age. 

I don't know who all the "hip" bands are. The only ones I like or have heard are, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry and just a handful of others. Today's generations SUCKS...not all, but most just flat out SUCK. Kids have no respect these days. ( Seriously, I sound like an elderly individual). The lack of responsibility in parents these days is definitely atypical. Sad, but true. Man, I sound like I am an old woman already. My birthday is coming in 7 months and after that, I am going to stop counting my age. So naturally I feel like that awkward stage between jailbait and cougar. You are what you eat and I eat fresh and healthy. :) When guys ask me how old I am...UGH. Really guy, really?? They look at me like I've got two heads and nine teeth. Seriously, if you can't handle the fact that I'm waaaaayyyy older than you...sheesh! Well, like I always say...pass that chardonnay. It will do me splendidly. Happy Halloween everyone. :)

J. Cay