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Oh Louis, how I love you. :) |
Why is life so...? I mean, you're born, you live to be as many years as God gives you, then you die. Simple and to the point. Right? There's nothing wrong with that. It's the trend everyone follows. Knowing how to do it right is a different story. I was raised in a Christian home with a loving family who are very dear to me. Knowing that they would do anything for me is a great feeling. However, when the shoe is on the other foot, I feel helpless. Completely, utterly, regretfully, helpless. I got some bad news about my dad, which really seemed to effect me more than I thought it would. My dad is all I have and the only dad I will ever know. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't here. I, in no way shape or form can help with anything.
Sometimes I think to myself, what am I doing in this town with no family, a handful of friends (which, don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing) plus I am not even attending the school I moved here for anymore. What is the big deal??? I swear sometimes I make the weirdest choices that turn out to be just plan mistakes that I can't see until it is too late. There are days where I wish I could just put my life in reverse and make a decision to move elsewhere. I love it here, but it's getting more and more trial-some rather than effortless. This is my life in a nut shell, I guess. Well bring on that good ol' chardonnay! :)
J. Cay
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