Everything Happens For A Reason...

I am a firm believer that all people, in a way, have a split personality of some sort. I'm not saying they are bi-polar, but they do show signs of it to a certain degree. How can someone go from an all time high of being excited, ready to take on the world, to complete low, and negative spirit? The statements someone makes...does that make a person change their attitude or just their state of feeling in the heat of the moment? I have many questions as to why I stumble upon such confrontations.

I was hung up on the phone today. I just have to say, it's funny that people's immediate reaction to something that they can't handle or don't want to talk about, they hang up the phone or simply walk away from the situation. We've all done that, including myself. Usually I'll call back and argue, but this time around I'm going to let the petty things go where they belong, far away from me...not to be heard again. I think I've finally grown up and just learned to move on. I'm glad that I got to experience this deployment. It's made me grow up in many ways I didn't think was possible. Life is what you make out of it, and I've finally come to realize that some people just never grow up. 

That being said, I am not down today after what happened with my phone call. In fact, I'm quite happy that it did happen. It showed me that more than capable of handling any situation that I don't or can't handle the other person. I'm not a confrontational person, but if need be, I will. I must avow, I live in a world where trust is more like a fairy tale, love is just a mystery that everyone must prove is true, smiles are faux, "real" friends fade away and worst of all, people are just overly sensitive to anything and everything that is said to them ( whether it's good, bad, or indifferent ). 

I realized at that very moment, I don't live for anyone except God. I realized at that very moment, I have finally grown up. I realized at that very moment, I am not who I use to be and I am finally being ME. I realized that it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are. Thank you E.E. Cummings. I've been asking myself that question for a very long time. When will you grow up? When will you be an adult? Today my friends, I became what everyone wants to be.  Themselves.  

Once upon a time, Marilyn Monroe said : “I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”  Thank you Miss Monroe. I guess everyone had to grow up some time in their life. Some in the spotlight and some in the back drop. I would say that her quote really fell in good ties with my whole situation today. I love learning and growing up from situations that are key to ones life experiences. 

J. Cay